June started well with the Xbox 360 returning to my life a lot more meaning 28 achievements have been unlocked in the first nine days more then April and May combined and the assistance of my girlfriend has been the catalyst.
However, I have discussed over the months that a goal for the year was to start and maintain a relationship but sadly the latter will not be attained as earlier today my girlfriend Letitia broke up with me saying she was not happy which was upsetting given the events we have enjoyed in the relationship with the Magic Weekend one of the most recent successes.
Worse came when I found out that hours later she was flirting and arranging to meet a different guy, someone she had met in the pub last night while I was worrying about her with her not answering me yesterday afternoon while I was in work, many who read this blog series know how much I loved her and how much I cared for and supported her including loaning her £300 which I am hoping I will get back but after the events of today only time will tell.
Another big problem which when together was a massive plus is that we live so close together and I know there will be a time I will cross paths with her hopefully not with what may be her new partner but right now I am in a mood of great sadness as basically my life in 2013 has collapsed as with her I went out drinking, for meals and enjoyed days out.
Aside from my ventures to the DW which will return to being alone and going to work, what is going to get me out of the house - nothing - which means I will likely return to how I was for most of 2012 by 'living in my bedroom' which sounds sad but I cant think of any other option as not only am I now single again but with no close friends, I have no one to talk to and at the age of 26 that is a really upsetting realisation that my life is so lonely.
I really do hope my mood changes by the time of the next post but we will see.....
However, I have discussed over the months that a goal for the year was to start and maintain a relationship but sadly the latter will not be attained as earlier today my girlfriend Letitia broke up with me saying she was not happy which was upsetting given the events we have enjoyed in the relationship with the Magic Weekend one of the most recent successes.
Worse came when I found out that hours later she was flirting and arranging to meet a different guy, someone she had met in the pub last night while I was worrying about her with her not answering me yesterday afternoon while I was in work, many who read this blog series know how much I loved her and how much I cared for and supported her including loaning her £300 which I am hoping I will get back but after the events of today only time will tell.
Another big problem which when together was a massive plus is that we live so close together and I know there will be a time I will cross paths with her hopefully not with what may be her new partner but right now I am in a mood of great sadness as basically my life in 2013 has collapsed as with her I went out drinking, for meals and enjoyed days out.
Aside from my ventures to the DW which will return to being alone and going to work, what is going to get me out of the house - nothing - which means I will likely return to how I was for most of 2012 by 'living in my bedroom' which sounds sad but I cant think of any other option as not only am I now single again but with no close friends, I have no one to talk to and at the age of 26 that is a really upsetting realisation that my life is so lonely.
I really do hope my mood changes by the time of the next post but we will see.....
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