The Fortnight Rollercoaster

After a brilliant start to the month, as you all know the joy plummeted as the first week faded into the second and the results of that are the main reason I have not posted until now.

There has been some joy with the success of my first XBOX 360 Weekender which took place across 15-17th and saw a brilliant haul of 40 achievements and 715G across 14 different games and the success means I can plan further events in the future. My ex got back in touch a few days after the break up and we agreed to be friends and chatted a lot over the weekend.

However, with every positive there is always a negative as like the previous week she showed a side I had never seen while dating her as she decided not to be friends any more and we got into a two hour heated argument where a lot of regrettable things were said from her and from myself and the conversation ended with her wishing a long painful death on me, nice after treating her like a princess for five months and that is the thanks I get.

Furthermore, the money she owed me (£280) will never be repaid because of her stubborn and cowardly ways let’s not forget she broke up over text what horrible person does that I mean really?

This may look like a rant but like I have said in the past, I do not exactly have any close friends to talk to and as such no one to just talk to and get my feelings out so in my blog is the only 'real' way which may sound sad but hey it is all I have.

Back in January just as I had met my now ex-girlfriend I was subject to a performance process in work which from the 10th saw nothing until five months later what a coincidence that was! As just as I was at my lowest, fate thought let us make it just that lower so that after my three day weekender and in returning to work - within fifteen minutes I was called up to what was obviously a performance catch up.

Unfortunately with my mood at a low stage, I was not equipped for this and with the note taker being the woman who mocked me back when I had my investigation made me unstable so when the review began I knew no matter what I was not going to just sit there quietly and when told by the manager reviewing that they were sorry that they had not kept me updated that was it for the quietness.

Flipped is an understatement as I just let go ' An apology that's all! I have been on tenterhooks for five tense months and you apologise, well it is not enough!' Then the usual ' well we expect you to hit 90% consistently as your current average of 66% is unacceptable.'
 
Admittedly, they know full well that in the past that 90% was no problem for me but wear and tear have meant I am not as quick as I used to be and it seems that they don’t accept that and would rather insult me by saying that I am not trying and I am due back up there in two weeks and to be honest stuck about whether to fight the cause or accept that they basically want me out.

They claim they can help me but all the ways they suggest have been a hindrance rather than a boost and the pressure of consistent putting down is something I don't want with a lot of previous instances, the worst bit of the review was the note taker having her say by saying my attitude and body language wasn't good well she soon found out why as I unleashed a 'Well how would you feel being left in the cold for five long months to then be dumped and brought back up here in the same week I'm not exactly going to be walking around with a big grin am I'!

So it has not been a happy two weeks that is for sure but hopefully the remaining days of the month will turn the tide around as this weekend I will do my annual 'Lap of Skem' and travel to Warrington for my first away game as a Warriors fan with the long awaited return to the DW next Friday against Castleford with my ex's seat still set to be wasted but hey can’t be helped I guess.

Hopefully will post before the monthly summary and the new feature of the mid-year summary so speak soon.

Xbox Rises But Spirit Falls

June started well with the Xbox 360 returning to my life a lot more meaning 28 achievements have been unlocked in the first nine days more then April and May combined and the assistance of my girlfriend has been the catalyst.

However, I have discussed over the months that a goal for the year was to start and maintain a relationship but sadly the latter will not be attained as earlier today my girlfriend Letitia broke up with me saying she was not happy which was upsetting given the events we have enjoyed in the relationship with the Magic Weekend one of the most recent successes.

Worse came when I found out that hours later she was flirting and arranging to meet a different guy, someone she had met in the pub last night while I was worrying about her with her not answering me yesterday afternoon while I was in work, many who read this blog series know how much I loved her and how much I cared for and supported her including loaning her £300 which I am hoping I will get back but after the events of today only time will tell.

Another big problem which when together was a massive plus is that we live so close together and I know there will be a time I will cross paths with her hopefully not with what may be her new partner but right now I am in a mood of great sadness as basically my life in 2013 has collapsed as with her I went out drinking, for meals and enjoyed days out.

Aside from my ventures to the DW which will return to being alone and going to work, what is going to get me out of the house - nothing - which means I will likely return to how I was for most of 2012 by 'living in my bedroom' which sounds sad but I cant think of any other option as not only am I now single again but with no close friends, I have no one to talk to and at the age of 26 that is a really upsetting realisation that my life is so lonely.

I really do hope my mood changes by the time of the next post but we will see.....

Five Down Seven To Go

Magic May comes to an end and what I hope will be a Jam-packed June begins but let's not get ahead of ourselves lets tie up May first of all.

May has been a mixed month with the redecoration and renovation of my room taking up a lot of time outside of work hours but there has been major progress on the goals front as FIVE goals were completed overall.

The first saw the annual renewal of Xbox Live which will take me into my sixth year in July and should be intact when I decide to purchase the upcoming Xbox One. On the Xbox 360 front the only success was reaching 200 achievements and 3000G in 2013. Redecorating was the second completed goal as it has been in the works for years just with no real plan until this Spring.

The third 'success' was the prediction of a 7th place or better finish for Liverpool which is sadly the expectation of the majority of fans as the club attempts to build for an improvement next year which is surely to mount an assault on a top-four finish.

Attending the Magic Weekend with Letitia was the fourth as since my first Warriors game in 2010, I always wanted to go to a main event with a partner and was so overjoyed when she signed up for this year's Magic event. A truly great Sunday afternoon climaxed with a pulsating Leeds v Wigan clash which despite a heart-stopping try denial in the final minutes (Leeds) saw a victorious Wigan side much to our joy. As for watching Wigan, two new goals have been set in place - 'Go to five games with Letitia' and 'complete the season together'.

The final success of the month saw a huge milestone in the fitness area as I breached the 1.5 million Nike Fuel mark on the 30th , a feat even more huge seeing that I only hit 1 million in early February but the mark has been hit and the next two targets are an achievable 2 million overall and an outside chance of reaching 2.5 million.

 

Fitness wise, it has been a pretty good month as Nike+ as a whole accumulated 157,616 which is a pivotal reason that the 1.5 million mark has been reached so quickly. Run-keeper has seen a good month also charting at second highest of 2013 in distance with a total of 79.9mi in about 24 and a half hours resulting in 9,901 calories burned. June sees the annual Lap of Skem which should put a fair bit of mileage on to the running total.

All in all, a good month but with a lot of planned things not done it means June will have to make up for it. As already mentioned there is the Lap of Skem but also I will attend my first official Warriors away game at Warrington with the home run resuming on the 28th against Castleford.